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2012-02-11T19:39:00.001+08:00

Bye. Not coming back anymore.

keep the streets empty for me

2012-02-05T00:07:00.002+08:00

No you don't, and don't give me any of that 'it gets better' crap because I'm not interested in it getting any better. I want it to be better like right now. I want to hurt them the way they hurt us. No, worse. I want them to feel my pain because frankly that's all I have left to give. - Artie, Glee S03E11

You can never say goodbye to your past as someday certain things happen and it will trigger your ugly memories, hurting you all over again. If only 'Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind' exists. - By me.


forever alone.

2012-02-03T19:32:00.002+08:00

i hate you too, bye.
going to play sims now, like finally!!!!!!!!!!!!! wheeee

Heartbeats

2012-02-03T00:13:00.001+08:00

Everyday realizing that I will be somebody else memories, memories that people will forget, my morale somehow has decreases. Merely February and I already start having meltdown, twice. As I feel so useless, especially I can't be frugal, really need to go some AA program kind of stuff. Over-thinking kills me too. And if you even want to talk, please give me some more time, let my heart shrivels completely before start talking. As I'm really sucks at maintaining LDR, I become more depressed than usual as I keep thinking what you said then whats the point of having relationship before you leave? Please lah. P/s, I'm asexual.

2012-02-01T21:34:00.001+08:00

suckssssss. left with 2 seq and 1 sbq. and i want to sleep.

2012-01-24T21:07:00.000+08:00

i keep dwell in the past. can't get over what happened yesterday, ahahhahaha.
should really voice out my thoughts yesterday, absolutely regret that i did not display my general knowledge -.-
and kinda feel bad about what happened yesterday which i left my visitors and went to the toilet and hide.

2012-01-24T00:33:00.001+08:00

Her craziness is cause by the abusive relationship between her husband and her. She is fear of being abuse. Her mind started to develop protection wall around her mind and the protection wall causes her to become insane. And craziness can protect her from being abuse. How tragic her life is. And from that day onwards, her husband barely bother her anymore and she feel so safe with her craziness that she does not want to be normal again. (This paragraph that I've written just appear on mind, so I just want to write it out)

2012-01-22T12:11:00.001+08:00

Bought new phone. :)

But brutal to our heart.

2012-01-20T14:53:00.002+08:00

Having stomach/gastric pain for the past two weeks. And the pain makes me fear of eating more... And I've been skipping dinner for the past whole week. With the pain, I don't really dare to eat more.... Take today as an example, had breakfast this morning and my stomach pain until now... Bloody sian, now I don't dare to eat my lunch..... And I'm kinda hungry now. :( Going to sleep again.

..... And Z just texted me that yesterday concert was awesome......I hate you.

2012-01-19T18:06:00.001+08:00

Hi just pierced my ear. ~~Post effect is so painful.~~

already broken already gone already know you're moving on

2012-01-13T20:49:00.000+08:00

chinese new years in 1 week time... need to go out with mother to buy cny stuff. then still have to go to law firm, change ic, new phone, internet............... and homework.... not enough time!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

C'est la vie

2012-01-10T21:19:00.002+08:00

When wanting to end a life, I realize how fragile life is. Perhaps, it is just merely an excuse to escape death. I guess I am an absolute coward. As I hate the idea of end a life but sometimes I am so tired that I have lost hope. I am neither optimistic nor pessimistic, I'm just tired that I cannot take it anymore. And we lie best when we lie to ourselves, every single day telling myself that tomorrow will be better than today which I don't think it is true at all.

2012-01-03T20:36:00.000+08:00

First day of school and I really hope 'O' level will be over because I'd found a recommendation list of dramione, almost 600++ fanfics!!!!!! Can seriously read until I die please.

auld lang syne

2011-12-31T23:27:00.004+08:00

science centre.

all hail the bacon.

the post margarine effect.

fire.

Regrets and mistakes, they are all memories made. Hello 2012, goodbye 2011. And 2012, please be good to be as I promise I will be very very nice to everyone, study very very hard for my 'O' level and will try my best to stop being so 'qian da'. Resolutions for each year is totally useless as nobody really accomplish it. Nonetheless, my resolutions for 2012 is to get a certain points for my O level, lose weight, save 5k by the end of the year, stop being an ass and god damn puerile too and lastly, improve my languages. That's all, I don't want to make an entire god damn list. Oh, and stop swearing like a god damn sailor. And I'm here to apologize to all I'd offended for this past years, please forgive me pretty please, with a cherry on top. And please pardon my puerile state of mind, I will try my best to stop being such an ass.

oh girls they want to have fun

2011-12-22T21:27:00.001+08:00

Merry Christmas

11 more days to school reopen. My plan for holiday has failed terribly. I've no idea how to stop procrastinating. Will be taking 'O' level next year, I don't know take which course is better, mass communication or international business?
And really hope that my father will bring me to either Nigeria or Bahamas. Or visit my aunt in Germany.

Glass i n t h e Park

2011-12-19T20:19:00.000+08:00

Hi.... Today was the day that I've been anticipating for quite a certain of time. And well, it is nothing what I want. But, at least is normal I guess? Frankly speaking, I detest odd numbers... Oh, I got an unlucky number for it... the slave amendment, fibonacci number................ Yea..................

pilerile waltz

2011-12-16T02:43:00.000+08:00

In the middle of the night, listening the entire tracks from 'submarine'.
I'm bored. Like really really really bored. Need to find something to do before I go berserk.

2011-12-08T16:41:00.001+08:00

Books to be read by this holiday: City of Ashes, Deathly Hallow, Sense and Sensibility, The Great Gatsby, The Outsiders, Delirium, The Catcher in the Rye, I Love You Beth Copper, The Paris Vendetta and Lonely Werewolf Girl.

Must seriously read finish Delirium, The Outsiders, The Great Gatsby, The Catcher in the Rye and Deathly Hallow. And I must seriously stop this habit, which is reading half way of a book then read another book, then the cycle repeat. :/

Oh, and books to read for next year are, Slaughterhouse-five (for god's sake, i've been searching for sooo long), The Picture of Dorian Gray, Vanity Fair, Villettte, The Paris Wife, The Dovekeepers, Madame Tussaud, Among Others and A Song of Ice and Fire series!!!!!

Cutting out your heart like a cannibal

2011-12-08T08:07:00.001+08:00

When I claimed that how mature am I over the year. I'm not as mature as I want//not as mature as how people define mature. I'm still ridiculously bloody lame and puerile. Seriously, I've to stop doing lame things like ... Stop talking rubbish like death eaters... fictional characters that do not exist. That's all... I guess? I need some time to think of more puerile/lame stuff that I did this year.

2011-12-03T17:12:00.001+08:00

My heart just shriveled a little and died a little. // I tried I study but failed terribly. Was doing physics tys, end up writing my plot on my book -.- . So, I shall start doing English.

no light, no light

2011-12-01T20:23:00.001+08:00

how i wish i own a time machine and able to go back to maybe 18th or 19th century will be nice.

im really really bored and i want to type something meaningful, something like straw that broke the camel's back (yea, i know what it means), something exaggerating. i don't know, maybe i should become a fanfiction writer. and yes, i've been trying to write fanfiction, but failed terribly because i haven't started with a good prologue and i've been thinking of the climax and epilogue. and just fyi, im shipping draco x hermione. <3, dramione.

And when I read my chapter 1 aka da prologue, it is full grammar mistakes, sigh.

“Have you ever been in love? Horrible isn't it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens up your heart and it means that someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up all these defenses, you build up a whole suit of armor, so that nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life...You give them a piece of you. They didn't ask for it. They did something dumb one day, like kiss you or smile at you, and then your life isn't your own anymore. Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, so simple a phrase like 'maybe we should be just friends' turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart. It hurts. Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind. It's a soul-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain. I hate love.” ― Neil Gaiman

Neil Gaiman is seriously awesome and my entire fanfiction is inspired by the sandman, vol.9 yo.

bibi, elisa, bambou, please give me one of it

2011-11-30T00:45:00.000+08:00

someday, im so gonna be filthy rich. rich until im able to purchase every trendy louboutin that i like. rich until im able to buy lots of birkin bags. and right now, im saving up to buy new phone, bag and more clothes. need more $.

2011-11-27T03:11:00.001+08:00

sigh. you are a good friend but seriously? i've lost track on how many guys you've dated. you always tend to fall in love so quickly and i just hope you will stop with this bad habit. because ich liebe dich, i dont want you to live this kind of lifestyle anymore, it might be fun to drink during the night, roll cigarettes when you are bored and just drink gallons of water when you are hungry now but in the future, you will suffer. i just hope it just your 'im 18 years old and finally allow to do legal stuff shit moment' is just temporary maybe until you are 20, you will realize it and you will change in the future and love yourself more. xoxo

We are who we are

2011-11-20T06:51:00.000+08:00

Writing this heartfelt post in the wee hours of the morning. I'm having school holiday now. I miss some people. They might be back for vacation but we are back to acquaintance. We don't talk as much as we promised. You guys are a few hours ahead of me and all of us were busy studying especially you are having your finals a few weeks ago. I've no ideas how to cope with this solitude emotion. Maybe studies had distracted me but now ... there is nothing. I just miss them and how they treated me. They simply embraced who i am. And then shit happens, one decided to fly back and then a few decided to fly back too. People made foolish mistakes and there is no point to hold grudges, we are not perfect and everyone has flaw. And don't judge the book by its cover as you don't know anything at all. I miss everyone, I miss my past and I have no idea why it turns so shit... Maybe I'm sucks in maintaining long distance relationships because of my own flaws. Maybe I'm selfish but I really want someone to know me well and stay by my side forever because it is really sucks to cope everything alone. Things have changed since 7 years ago. And I'm not a charity case so fuck off. I don't like this place because of h p t m i r s, p i m a n b h i f a j m m f s e. A i t i h d. Thus, I realize my exist doesn't matters and I wtcss. Life gets better and it better be true.
P/s: I can't sleep.

The one that got away

2011-11-12T23:52:00.001+08:00

Hi. I'm really really really bored. Holiday is like ... nothing really to do? Except going out on some random days, lunch with parents and blah. I'm studying/practicing my French and you know what? It is so fucking sucks. J'ai horreur de apprendre le français. Okay, I can't remember français is masculine or feminine or does the word really need le.
And what if one day, I just disappear? Will it make me realize my exist doesn't really matters? If it does then ... Suicide will be the only solution?

And then you will be happy regardless of any external attributes; this is absolute bullshit.

2011-10-30T21:51:00.000+08:00

Hello.I'm so tired right now, didn't really sleep well as my sister went overseas. And I'm bored. Going to bleach and dip dye my hair later on. Take a power nap now. Because I gotta nailwrap my nails. Brb

Idris

2011-10-26T20:04:00.000+08:00

Gifs from Doctor Who S06E04, The Doctor's Wife

Well hellllloo. I'm bored and I don't want to watch the next episode of Doctor Who because it will be god damn scary. So, wellllllllll....... My N level is over! So, apparently I've made a gifs from doctor who which is at the top ^. Im so bored. I really want to watch Skins and Camelot but both are rather explicit but my father is staying at home till 28th. And Gossip Girl is getting BORING. And I really want to watch Dexter but it is really creepy and I've no ideas why Australians are so fond of it. Well, why australians? Apparently, my friends from Australia think it is so awesome and they just watch finish within a few days? wtf.

So, I've start playing maple too. Ahh, I've really nothing better to do and I really need money! $.$
Anyway, here is my wishlist for the rest of the year.

Wishlist:

1. Sims 3 Town Life

2. Sims 3 Pets

3. A small Chanel vintage bag. I seriously regret getting Jumbo, damn useless please. And I saw one really cute one costs SGD 2k only!

4. Iphone 4S

I seriously regret getting Jumbo. A Wang studded bag costs cheaper and looks better than it. :'(
And I really want to go overseas. Okay. Bye, that's all.

stripped

2011-10-18T18:36:00.000+08:00

I can't wait to get my N level result. If I able to get to sec 5. Things will go according to what I've plan.
Such as going overseas like finally! [Gah, stupid waterfront restaurant! :( ] and then do things that I've always want to do. Bye.

Rhapsody in Blue

2011-10-12T20:35:00.000+08:00

Hi. Today, I realized that everything is just a cycle.
And I can't wait for holiday.

Hey Jude

2011-10-06T11:26:00.001+08:00

And you begin to make it better Hi. I'm shitting in my bathroom, listening to 'Hey Jude' and typing this entire thing out. Soon, 2011 will be over and hope the end of 2012 will not exist. Yet, recently ozone layer at the northern hemisphere is completely gone and few asteroids are near the earth and nasaq had discovered almost a thousand of asteroids. Meh. My N end tomorrow, left with FNN! Can't wait for tomorrow.

2011-09-21T23:59:00.000+08:00

Hi. Shit happens, life sucks and everyone knows that.

Here it is. One more, one less. Another wasted love story.

2011-09-10T22:54:00.000+08:00

: My life is shit.

BARBRA STREISAND

2011-08-22T21:36:00.000+08:00

HELLO. OINK OINK.

English tomorrow

2011-08-05T00:03:00.000+08:00

Albert had been framed for the crime he had not committed and at this juncture of his life, yet he saw his trial through rose-colored glasses.

Having English prelim tomorrow and I'm practicing for my compo, what I've written at ^the top^ was just to test out the idioms I've learn so far.

Lights will guide you home. And ignite your bones. And I will try to fix you.

2011-07-23T22:47:00.000+08:00

Halloween card, 2010

YO. IM BACK TO BLOGGER!
So, went through all my cards that I've been receiving for this few years, all I can say is that getting gift cards in Singapore is really hard. Does Singapore have Halloween card? No! Meh. And those gift cards I've been receiving from are usually from the States and the cards are lovely. Oh. And those who study literature are lucky bastards, they actually read Animal Farm and The Outsiders!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! So good!!!

Birthday wishes

2010-08-05T22:32:00.000+08:00

Hermes bracelet

Les Trompe L'ceil de Chanel

A sample birkin bag, visa card, kaleidoscope, iPad, kodak film telephone, deed poll, miu miu collar, smock dresses and culottes.

Haha, goodbye. It's been a really long time ever since I blog.